im depression hep C

[aswadlive25]

what should i do im have no money for healty food to buy and medicine
idonno what im doing but its my fault cuz of drug im start 18 year old
and now im 27 Grrrrrrrrr
can't get work also
i want to commit suicide but im scared
im going crazy now
Alone+depression+sickness=Death

sorry for my emotional
i love this forum
i feel this
 http://shanghaiist.com/2015/05/01/freshman-student-carrying-hbv-commits-suicide-isolated.php

[KimInTheForest]

Hang on, aswadlive! I know it can seem very bleak, especially if you have been recently diagnosed and have no money. But you will get through this - honest! Hep C is not the end of the world. Many of lived with it for decades before being cured. I lived with Hep C for 45 years until I was cured last year with Harvoni. In other words, you can go a long time with Hepatitis C and still have a normal life and health. So don't worry too much about that part.

And most importantly, the cure is now here. One way or another, you will get cured. Even if it seems impossible right now. Some people (like me) get cured through clinical trials. Some people are able to buy low-cost generic version of the Hep C drugs from India, China and elsewhere and get cured that way.

The point is: you will get through this and you will be cured - and your health will be okay.

Added: It does not matter how you got Hep C or what you did in the past. Nobody asked for Hep C. nobody deserves it. Everybody who has it deserves to be cured. It is not your fault.

kim

[lporterrn]

I have been where you are aswadlive, and what I know solidly in my heart is that with some help, life gets better. Thinking about suicide is a serious, life-threatening symptom that you need help, and soon. I don't know where you live, so I'll give you
a variety of resources to help you through this rough time:

U.S. suicide hotline 1 (800) 273-8255 (Call to chat even if you aren't feeling suicidal a the moment)
Link to state and international hotlines http://www.suicide.org/suicide-hotlines.html

Hold tight to the fact that hep C is curable and even if you have no money, there are options for many people. Also, you have had it a short period of time and you are young. Even if you don't have the healthiest diet, if you aren't doing drugs or drinking, your liver can handle this. Don't lose hope. Trust me, if I thought it was hopeless, I'd tell you.

[beto]

aswadlive

I can't really add to Kim and Lucinda's comments.  However, I add my support for whatever it is worth.  Please find someone to talk about these feelings to.  In the meantime you will find that the people on this forum are a very supportive bunch.  Many of us have gone through emotional turmoils of all kinds.  You have friends here.  Peace and good luck to you...you will find a way through this.

[aswadlive25]

i cant sleep all night cuz yesterday only 2hours sleep and im allday in bed
im going crazy idonno what im doing
i'm ashamed of myself and to my family and friends

im very SAD i wish i control myself allday sometimes im thinking bad

[Mugwump]

Do not look to blame yourself for your infection. At the same time do not blame others or try to understand why it happened. If you are kind to yourself it is much easier to be kind to others. Most of all find a path away from fear and self doubt.


There were times when I was at the same point that you are now. Then I look back and realize that I did not pass on this disease and have a wife who was not infected by having my child and living with me for over 30 years. My children are also not infected.


You are still young and the disease has not progressed yet so you have time to get cured and much to live for.


I know that you feel as if you are cursed but this is not the truth. You can find your path.


If I read you correctly you are from the Shanghai area. So getting treatment might be very hard and many will not understand and fear this disease the same way we once did here in the west. But the truth is that the infection is not at all easily spread and does not carry the same risks as is hepatitis a and b which are also infectious by contact and oral ingestion with food stuffs.


Try to understand when others do not understand and treat you without compassion, do not become angry with the ignorance of others. It is the only way to overcome this disease. I found over the years the fears and stress caused by this disease can only be handled by making the most of what you are good at doing. I cook professionally and study music. Do what you do the best you can and deal with the disease. By being kind to yourself and others you will overcome the depression, self doubt and shame.


My heart and thoughts are with you.
Eric
 

[aswadlive25]

im from philippines
you have child before you got HCV and unprotected sex?
im not treatment now im going worst my HCVZ? and i have no exercise diet also
no healty food

i cant sleep well cuz im thinking myself where im going or what should i do
but thank for this site is helpul

Chat?

[lporterrn]

Consider the fact that worrying about this is hurting you. It's like paying rent on a house you don't live in. Today is a new day, and maybe you can make one small change - walk for 10 minutes; eat one piece of fruit; when you find yourself worrying instead of sleeping, say, "I'll worry about that tomorrow." Do it over and over. I do an alphabet gratitude list - starting with A, I name something I am grateful for. I am asleep before I get to Z.

[KimInTheForest]

I do an alphabet gratitude list - starting with A, I name something I am grateful for. I am asleep before I get to Z.

Wow! I love the idea of an alphabet gratitude list! Very powerful!

[lporterrn]

Let me know what you get for X - one can only be so grateful for X-rays. Xcellent friends is cheating, but makes my heart feel fuller than X-rays do...

[gnatcatcher]

How about Xerox machines, xylem (without which no pure maple syrup), xylophones, x-axes on graphs, the X factor, X chromosomes, and X-acto knives?

[KimInTheForest]

How about Xerox machines, xylem (without which no pure maple syrup), xylophones, x-axes on graphs, the X factor, X chromosomes, and X-acto knives?

And most importantly... X-Files!

[lporterrn]

Those work in my world - esp X-files. And I love those X chromosomes! I had never even heard of xylem but I am grateful for it.

[Lynn K]

im from philippines
you have child before you got HCV and unprotected sex?
im not treatment now im going worst my HCVZ? and i have no exercise diet also
no healty food

i cant sleep well cuz im thinking myself where im going or what should i do
but thank for this site is helpul

Chat?

Hi

Just wanted to say that for long term monogamous couples hep c is not considered to be sexually transmitted. There are many here who have had hep c but their spouse does not. If you have multiple partners or engage in rough sex practices you should use barrier protection especially if the person who has hep c also has the HIV virus.

Also many women with hep c have had children and their children do not have hep c. The risk for mother to child transmission is about 5% so while not impossible it is relatively low risk.

While a healthy diet is helpful especially in early hep c infection a special diet is not required. It takes decades for hep c for most people to experience liver damage. About 20% of people with hep c over 20 years time will develop cirrhosis but 80% do not.

Basically having early hep c is for most not a medical emergency but it is important to be treated so any future damage won't have a chance to happen.

Good luck
Lynn

[MaryC]

aswadlive25,
You mention that you are from the Philippines, do you live there now?  Do you have a close family or friend that you can talk with or possible ask to help you get some treatment?  While it is important that you see someone about your chronic Hep C, it is MORE important that you first talk with someone about how you have been feeling and the fact that you are sad and very worried, and cannot sleep.  Please reach out to a family member or friend for help.  Tell them how you have been feeling.
Mary

[aswadlive25]

aswadlive25,
You mention that you are from the Philippines, do you live there now?  Do you have a close family or friend that you can talk with or possible ask to help you get some treatment?  While it is important that you see someone about your chronic Hep C, it is MORE important that you first talk with someone about how you have been feeling and the fact that you are sad and very worried, and cannot sleep.  Please reach out to a family member or friend for help.  Tell them how you have been feeling.
Mary

i have no money for treatment but ok i aceept
i try to go college short course
i only want stay long here in the world i accept my fate

Aswad